The Victorian’s idolized childhood to a fetishistic level. It was regarded as one of the highest states of being; pure innocence and a connection with nature unsurpassed by any other condition. I deliberately sought out some books about Carroll after revisiting Gavin Millar/Dennis Potter’s film ‘Dreamchild.’ I’ve just got a very inquisitive mind and once I get fixed on a subject, I have to find out as much about it as possible. My interests are pretty wide ranging. Thank you for asking such an interesting question tiki.